Kanye West feared Kim Kardashian would leave him after slavery comments, says he's thought about killing himself
Kanye West wasn’t exaggerating on his new album “Ye” when he expressed concern that his wife Kim Kardashian might leave him.
The hip hop star says he really did fear his marriage was in trouble following his controversial comments about slavery and admits he’s thought about taking his own life in the past in a wide-ranging new feature by The New York Times.
Here are some of the biggest revelations from the rapper’s interview.
He worried his TMZ interview would cost him his wife
West garnered tremendous backlash last month when he suggested on “TMZ Live” that 400 years of slavery sounded “like a choice” to him. The fallout was apparently so intense that West wondered about the state of his marriage.
“There was a moment where I felt like after TMZ, maybe a week after that, I felt like the energy levels were low, and I called different family members and was asking, you know, ‘Was Kim thinking about leaving me after TMZ?’ So that was a real conversation,” West told The Times.
West, 40, had previously said in his new song “Wouldn’t Leave,” released earlier this month, that he had to “calm” down his wife after he made the slavery comments and had even “told her she could leave me now,” but she stayed with him.
He’s thought a lot about suicide
Another lyric on West’s new album that can be taken literally is when he raps in “I’ve Thought About Killing You” that he thinks “about killing myself.”
He told The Times, “Oh yeah, I’ve thought about killing myself all the time. It’s always a option and (expletive). Like Louis C.K. said: I flip through the manual. I weigh all the options.”
The rapper added that he thought about the idea of ending his life “all the way through,” before acknowledging, “If I didn’t think it all the way through, then it’s actually maybe more of a chance of it happening.”
He tries to limit his mental health medication
West said multiple times in the interview that he was “learning” how to not rely on medication after being diagnosed with what The Times reported to be bipolar disorder.
The rapper told the newspaper he had only taken a single pill in the past week at the time of the interview, which took place in early June.
Earlier this month, West acknowledged to radio host Big Boy he was diagnosed with a “mental condition” but did not disclose which one. The cover for “Ye” does read, however, “I hate being Bi-Polar it’s awesome,” and he also refers to the condition in his song “Yikes.”
He felt pressure to support Hillary Clinton, but didn’t want to
West’s highly publicized support of President Trump has come with a considerable amount of condemnation from his fans and fellow artists, and he says the world basically told him he was supposed to support Clinton in the election.
“Because you’re black, because you make very sensitive music, because you’re a very sensitive soul, it was like an arranged marriage or something,” West said. “And I’m like, that’s not who I want to marry. I don’t feel that.
He believes getting his “voice back,” or speaking his mind, has helped make him a better father and musical artist.
He says other celebrities are afraid to voice their support of Trump
West said other public figures informed him they voted for Trump but they don’t want to admit that publicly.